Not good enough.

Assalamualaikum.

It has been a quite long time since the last time I dropped by.

Cliché. Been busy. Normal life as a student and a human.

Ahh..and we've entered Syawal. Alhamdulillah. Still, I missed the blessed month, Ramadhan.

Thinking of stopping by here for a while. Recalling all the words, thoughts, memories and emotions that I've poured and spilled in here.

A small space that I would like to claim as my own secret place.

Where I can honestly speak up my mind be ignorant about the world, the people and the judgement.

I'm afraid of building trust towards anybody. I'm afraid of their thoughts about me. I'm afraid of people's expectations.

Most of all I'm feeling that I am not good enough.

I'm at the verge of crying. Choked up. Holding hard my breath. Not gonna let anyone hear me. Not gonna let anyone notice me. All alone.


But I got Him. Now and forever.

May ALLAH bless us.

till then,

Lots of love.